Day 71 – Another book for my side table

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I got my confirmation email today for the Mindfulness course. I am to buy a book for writing in specifically for the course and the directive was to find something I love because it will be used to hold my inner thoughts blah blah. Ok – I LOVE buying stationary! As a young girl my pocket-money was spent in an even split on stationary and aniseed wheels. These days I’d say shoes win out mostly but I do love an excuse to go buy a beautiful blank book, positively vibrating with potential.

Of course that thing will probably happen where I open the first page ready to be profound and super articulate and my mind will go blank.

Also, I bought a book online called ‘The life-changing magic of Cleaning Up. The Japanese art of decluttering and Organising.’ by Marie Kondo. I keep buying books that I then don’t have time to read. I have quite a large pile next to the bed now. I am reminded of my students who when I ask if they have done their homework they’ll say ‘I’ve got the book!’ all indignantly but then admit that no, they haven’t actually read it. It’s like buying the book and keeping it by the bed shows willing, and actually that’s all I have the energy for right now.

But doesn’t that sound nice? ‘The life-changing magic of Cleaning up’. I wonder if I can get the children to read it.

Day 57 – new books in the mail!

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My GAPS book arrived and my bedside ‘library’ is getting full! I need to get started on this lot quick smart. I am feeling in the need for some focus so I think I will start with the GAPS book, gut healing and psychology stuff, notice I got a GAPS cookbook to go with it? Always be prepared – like a good girl guide.

This week has felt long and there is still one day to go. I was still feeling the effects of being glutened today so my brain is foggy as and my body is still slow and achey. The mid-term blues are kicking in for my girls – the wonders of the fresh start and the new term are wearing off and I spent a lot of time doling out hugs and tissues today. My office mate has a theory that they the whole school ‘syncs up’ and they all get PMS-y at the same time. Cadbury should just bulk deliver at this time. They would make a fucking killing.

It’s been the kind of day where you just want to come home and curl up with a glass of wine and some ‘alone time’. I was gifted a Whittakers %70 dark and a coke zero today. It took every ounce of my willpower to not eat them right there and then and I am pleased to say that they are still in my office fridge – I am hoping I can re-gift them without offense. What has the world come to when I am giving away chocolate? It’s unnatural.

It is getting tougher to not just go for comfort food though. Harder to resist just one small flat white when I am shattered in the morning. I am so tired that I want to use food to prop me up but I know that it is mostly from being glutened and getting used to the term being full swing again. So SLEEP is in order. And finding some time to read and get my ass educated about GAPS.

So what I need is time then. Ha! Tell ‘er she’s dreamin.

Day ten – 29 degrees in Christchurch today

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  • I fell of the sugar wagon today. Deliberately and with forethought.
  • and the Dairy wagon (but it was an accident).
  • Lack of exercise too, although went for multiple ‘waddles’ with me sis’ (she waddles and I walk slowly next to her).
  • It was hot and we toured through Lyttelton and the port hills.
  • I am not beating myself up about the sugar – the restaurant was fancy and the dessert was DF and GF. And I reminded myself that I am starting the ‘I quit sugar’ program on the 22nd. But that this is not an excuse to go cray cray until then. A simple blip. But I ain’t gonna kill myself man, the dessert was goooood.
  • I have read three books since I got here.
  • Bliss.

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Day six, packing, no yoga, success with a new recipe

Today I have spent most of the day packing to go to Christchurch to see my preggers sister. She is pregnant with my niece, first child, last few weeks and she’s LOVING it! Not. She’s hot and bothered and feeling fat and ungainly poor Mamabear. She worries about stuff because she’s forty and every bloody person she meets wants to tell her how risky it is for her and all the unpleasant side effects that come with being an older Mama. As if that stuff might help? All of my email attempts to get her in a paddling pool or similar have fallen on deaf ears – she reckons she tried the bath and just felt fatter and more out of control poor kid.

So when she emailed me in October – crunch time at school and everyone exhausted in general – to say that her Husband was going to Vegas (I know) for business (I KNOW) for a week and would I consider visiting so she wasn’t so lonely (and to walk the dog and cook the odd meal of course) I JUMPED AT THE CHANCE. No really. I wanted an out – and I wanted dry heat. You remember that Summer just wasn’t coming to Auckland? and we were all cold and pasty and miserable? Well, I booked my flights that day, Wednesday to Wednesday. The longest I have ever been away from my kids official. And I thought that I was going to miss them, I was nervous that the house would be too quiet, and I would get bored.

Not after today. Today started well, Master 4 was dropped off at daycare pretty early. I had Master 7 with me and we went and had my blood tests (declined to pay for the Zinc one nearly $90!), Got my watch fixed, went to the library, bought the two CUTEST skellington and tattoo/rose motif stretchies for my soon to be born niece on impulse, came home folded washing, Ukulele lesson, packing blah blah blah etc

Then we picked up Master 4, and the two boys pretty much fought until right now when the long suffering GD took them to bed. I can’t even put in words the noises the older one got out of the younger one. But what gets me is the relentless-ness of it. No matter what you say or threaten them with (losing their TV time/Computer time/Bikes/legs) they just keep going…. Mama needs a wine. REAL bad. And she can’t have one. So I am distracting myself with this blog, and remembering to wear my reading glasses, and washing what I need to pack from today. Yes, I am one of those people who packs waaaay too much. But that’s ok – I look good on holiday!

Last night we tried this recipe from ‘One Lovely Life’ (I have changed to NZ measurement thingies and names);

Serves: 4-5
  • 500gms chicken mince
  • 2c grated zucchini (leave peel on)
  • 2-3 spring onions, sliced
  • 3-4 Tbsp coriander, minced
  • 1 clove garlic
  • 1 tsp salt
  • ½ tsp pepper
  • (optional: ¾ tsp cumin) we didnt use this because we didnt have a GF one – didnt seem to make a difference
  • olive oil, for cooking (or coconut oil, avocado oil, or ghee)
  1. Toss chicken with zucchini, green onion, cilantro, garlic, salt, and pepper (and cumin, if using). Mixture will be quite wet.
To cook on the stovetop:
  1. Heat a drizzle of olive oil in a medium pan over medium heat. Use a small scoop or a heaped tablespoon to scoop meatballs into the pan. Cook 8-10 at a time for about 5-6 minutes on the first side. Flip and cook an additional 4-5 minutes, or until golden brown and the centers are cooked through.
  2. Serve with guacamole, salsa, or your favorite dip.

They were a hit! The whole family loved them AND there were leftovers for my lunch today which is even better and I have definitely added them to my options for snacks etc – they were so fast and easy to make and so YUMMY. So thanks ‘One Lovely Life’. These Chicken ‘poppers’ rule.

We ate them with my salsa/quac mixture (well I did – the boys won’t eat it because they’re dumb) which is the best for summer dinners;

  • one small avocado
  • about 6 medium tomatoes/10 cherry toms
  • 5 or 6 basil leaves
  • all of the green of a spring onion sliced

Chop the whole lot up and combine, sprinkle liberally with rock salt – YUM. And the best part is that it doesn’t upset my tummy (I can have the green part of the spring onion but not the white raw).

So that’s me for today, too tired for Yoga and the GD has gotten out ’22 Jump Street’ ‘specially for me so I’m gonna go lose myself in a Channing Tatum Coma now.

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Peace out.

New Years Day – Day One has dawned bright, rose tinted glasses on!


(not my image/shoulders – it is the first one that comes up when you google image search ‘hot yoga’ – you should have seen some of the others!)

So the day dawned bright and beautiful and me and the littlest lad rolled over to greet the sun; despite the fact that master 4 had been awake until well after midnight last night (beating master 7 and I hands down).

Hot Yoga this morning – my first yoga session of 2015 (and first session in over 9 months) what to eat so that I didn’t throw up in the heat later on? I settled on my fave – a chocolate smoothie – and in fact I only had half because it is so filling – and saved the rest to have chilled after Yoga. Here is the recipe – it’s really easy – just whack them all in the blender and whizz it up. 1/2 an avocado, 1 cup almond milk, 1 frozen banana chopped, 2 tblsp raw cacao powder, 1 tblsp peanut-butter and 3 dates. SO GOOD.

Yoga was fucking hard. I am NOT flexible and NOT great in the heat – I have a red face in a warm room in winter ffs but it felt good to be doing something and I like the instructor Bruce; he wanders around telling absent minded little stories that keep your mind off the hard core ness of the temperature and the disgusting grunting sounds the man next to you is making. Seriously – the women don’t make those noises – are they really necessary dude? Anyways – it’s a nice change of pace between boot camps and the studio I go to has introduced different types of (not hot) Yoga in my absence so am looking forward to trying them all out.

Back home and I am thinking about what to do to prep for the year ahead, I have thought about it a lot, and have been planning but not really anything tangible as yet. Mostly I am obsessed with all things food so it will be a matter of making sure I am always prepared like a good girl guide – and never caught on the hop starving – because that’s when I weaken and make bad food choices for my tummy (and pay for it later). I have talked to friends on similar missions or people who eat a certain way for health and have gotten lots of good links to sites and recipes, and a book recommendation from Jonni that I am waiting to come in at my local library.

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Here are my starter guidelines, mostly gathered from appts with various specialists including Dr Jenny who I see now, reading the book ‘The Calorie Fallacy’ by Libby Weaver, and general hunches firmed up by conversations with Cath (my friend with PHD’s who is amazeballs). Some of this stuff I was meant to be already doing but got seriously slack over the Xmas break so am getting ‘back on the wagon’ as it were 🙂

These are the rules for ‘my year of health’ all based around the plan of healing my gut and in turn (hopefully) fixing my skin and everything else;

  • No Gluten duh
  • No Dairy
  • No refined Sugar, and certain natural sugars (honey and high fructose fruit like apples and grapes)
  • No Alcohol or Coffee
  • Try to cut out or limit dramatically processed-to-death food
  • No raw food to start with, this might improve with time but for now the fiber is too much and it gives me instant tummy aches
  • No ‘crunchy’ or ‘scratchy’ food – toast, crackers, corn chips, etc – anything that might scratch or damage my gut lining
  • that goes the same for raw whole nuts – I can have nuts but in paste or totally ground up
  • MORE yoga
  • Regular WOF’s to check gluten, iron, magnesium etc levels
  • MORE ‘good for my gut’ food i.e. bone broths, smoothies, avocados, salmon, casseroles etc
  • MORE walks around the neighbourhood with the fam and the dog
  • LESS beating myself up for not fitting my clothes at the moment.
  • MORE mindfulness – appreciating the moment. The glorious here and now and the wonderful peeps in my life.

So not that much eh? HA HA. well, this is day one after all – Got to start positive!